Political church services.

Well... Today my total hours of church services was six hours.

10:30-11:30-English service at Zion. It went pretty well. The church was filled with joyful people expressing their Easter Holiday Spirits.

11:30-12- Just leaving church, and on my way to Austin, Mn.

12:00- In St.Johns Church waiting for my fellow Sudanese congregational members to arrive at the church.

You see, the thing with these families is that they like to be late. And when I say late I mean the pastor has to tell everyone that church starts at 11:00 even though it really starts at 12:00 just so the majority of the people are here on time. So, after everyone is situated, its time for the service to begin. It starts out running pretty smoothly, until its time for the guest speaker to put in a word. Sounds all good right. Yeah, not really. I'm sitting in the second pew on the left waiting to hear a very intresting and great story from the bible. Its that what I get? No way. I'm looking at this guy ready to speak and what he talks about stuns me. He is talking about politics. He beings with a story about a man from africa and leads into talking about how we need a better governtment in Sudan. He says we need one that does not use violence. Oh dont get me wrong I'm all for that, but this is not the place I want to hear this political nonsence from. He continues to ramble on about how we should vote for so and so in the upcoming political Campaign, and I'm sitting in my wooden pew thinking what does this have to do with god or Easter? It was a very interesting church service as you can tell.

Six years later,

3:00pm- Finally time to go home and relax. Only wait, a suprise we're going to the china buffet to eat. Yay! I'm happy. Oh but wait, Another suprise. Martha can't go because her mother is going to be late for work and she has to babysitt. So she's on her way home while everyone is chewing on their chicken teriyaki sticks.


GREAT DAY WASN'T IT?

Touched

Friday was my first time attending a Good Friday service and I have to say it was really deep. It;s basically like attending a funeral except this person is of a higher power and is not there in the flesh. It was sort of a dramatic setting. Imagine entering a silent service with many people, but there is not a sound. You walk in and look at the front alter and all you see is black. The cross that looks over the whole congregation is draped in a black cloth. I swear this was a really touching thing. I mean I understood what it would be like, but I couldn't attach the knowledge of it all with the emotions. I think everyone should sit in at atleast one good friday service. It would do really good to your soul.

-Martha

Track!

Okay so spring sports have started and I'm on the track team. Its been a few days now and I've noticed that I am really bored during practice. Maybe track isn't the right sport for me. I feel like all I'm doing is running and I'm receiving no progress, but maybe its because I'm constantly comparing myself to the athletes who've been doing sports all their lives. This is only my second sport. The first one being volleyball. So you can see the difference I thought Volleyball was much more exciting. Maybe after my first track meet I'll finally like track. We'll see.

ugh celebrities

Why aren't celebrities held accountable for their actions. Sure,they loose fans and a little bit of gwap.(money), but that comes with more publicity and delayed trial dates. I think celebz should be treated like regular people. Just because you have money doesn't mean what you did wasn't wrong.
For instance, chris brown. He totally messed up rihannas face, but he wasn't charged with battery.. noooo he was only charged with making "criminal threats." If that was any other guy from around the way,he would have already had his hands tied back with his rights read.
Anyone who does anything they know is probably not the right thing should be held accountable for their actions for sure.

What does love mean again?

Love, a term so overused it's lost its effect.
"I love him and he loves me too" but what is love now?
Is it caring for someone very strongly?
Is it not being able to live w/o your significant other?
I feel sorry for those who will never realize what love is, b/c of the
people who have demolished the term.
So find a new phrase or something.
I think unless you can give a proper explanation of what love is,
don't use the term.

Gone

I dont think he realizes that she's not here to stay?
She's here for a while then she'll be gone,gone away.
He takes her for granted playing his games
He thinks he's a player, but she don't play.
It's not a "Hey how you feelin; or "hey how are you"
its more like "what's happinin, or "hey what it do"
So check your ways, or its gone she'll be
Gone forever, and I bet you'll miss me.

-Martha

Grades! (Msg to all teachers)

Okay I thought we used Edline so that we could get easy access to our (student) grades. Well I've noticed that there are quite a few teachers who take six years to update grades. I mean I Know your busy and all, but come on, I can't be walking around all proud of myself thinking I have an A in a class and years later when you decide to update grades I'm stuck with the reality of a lower grade. So please could you add in your little agenda to update grades at least every two weeks. It would be greatly appreciated.

educaton now, babies later

I'm Sitting at home, Holding a baby that's crying hysterically, who just so happens to not be mine.
He's my younger brother, and also watching 4 other ones. Sometime I wonder if I was born to baby-sit the 52-thousand other children my parents would later have. I've been doing this since I can remember. Its ridiculous. I'm only fifteen. I haven't given birth to not one child, so why am I stuck at home every Friday night instead of hanging out with other cool kids like a normal teen? That's because I was born African. My parent feel like they rule me. I try to go somewhere and they say its not cool because they dont want people to know me as their daughter that's never home and is always out with her friends. Can't I live "MY" life? I mean it is mine afterall right? Or is it? I don't know. Oh and another thing that really ticked me off was that I was planning for a long time to join the track team but ol' sweet mother of mine tried to say that I can't do it because she's going back to work and my dad also works so WHAT DOES THAT MEAN? YEAH! NO BABYSITTER! But i dont care man, I need to live my life now, take care of kids later. If your going to be a parent you need to realize what your signing up for and not expect someone like me to take care of your children. So next time, think about that mother and father.

-Martha

Okay we get it! Your smart.

I was watching a Saturday night live show one evening, and one of the topics they were talking about was people who try to use a "BIGGER" vocabulary to make themselves sound "smarter" and I thought wow that's so true and its actually kinda sad. I mean I understand the people who can't help it. Its just there nature or whatever, but it gets really annoying. Like a lot. Then he showed this clip of this Business CEO, and he was speaking at a conference. The funniest part was that he was making up words that had no meanings. People figured it out because when they asked him" what he meant" by the terms he was studdering and didn't have a proper explanation. I was dying of laughter. It was hilarious. It turns out he was an intern and part of his internship was to practice his meeting hosting skills. I think he failed, or if he gave his boss a gut busting laugh maybe he'll get the job after all . So as message to everyone, use you natural voice. Using a higher vocabulary just to please others isn't being "smart" its being ignorant. Stay real. Please and thank you.

-Martha

Chris! why'd you have to get it POPPIN'

Okay, let me pause and take a deep breath. [inhale]...[exhale].

The latest news that struck me like a lightning bolt is that Chris brown, which just so happens to be my youngest celebrity crush, beat up his girlfriend Rihanna, whom i secretly envied. WHAT!? It can't be true b/c the chris I knew would never do that. Its unbelievable. Bite marks on her arms, bruises on her face, HOSPITALIZED? My world has officially crumbled. I wanna still be a little obsessed with him, but I can't he BEAT UP A GIRL! I've been a devoted fan of Brown's since like he was even chris brown. I even got both his albums and memorized all the songs. Can you call that devotion? Yeah. So now the imaginary romance we had is officially over. I don't like wife beaters. [ but i like wife beater tees] Anywho, I still can't take it all in. I mean I understand that he witnessed his mom and even experiences some domestic abusive back in the day, but thats no excuse for doing what he did. On the bright side, at least he turned himself in. On the downside, he just earned himself the title of a "once was." There will be no more CHRIS BROWN. RUN IT RUN IT. It'll only be chris brown, old boy from Tappahonnock, Virginia. WHAT A SAD SAD STORY.

Here's a little song remixed.

THERES NEVER A RIGHT TIME TO SAY GOODBYE
BUT SHE'S GOTTA MAKE THE FIRST MOVE CUZ IF SHE DONT,
YOU MIGHT END UP KILLIN HER.
NOW SHE REALLY DONT FEEL THE WAY SHE ONCE FELT ABOUT YOU
YEAH ITS NOT HER ITS YOU, AND SHE'S GOTTA FIGURE OUT HOW TO LEAVE.
OOH THERES NEVER A RIGHT TIME TO SAY GOODBYE
BUT SHE KNOWS THAT YALL GOTTA GO YOUR SEPERATE WAYS
AND YOU BIT HER HARD SO SHE'S GOTTA DO, AND ITS KILLIN YOU,
BUT NOW ITS THE RIGHT TIME, THE RIGHT TIME TO SAY GOODBYE.




Hope yall liked it, and chris i still secretly love you deep down inside, but its only a liitle speckle of love.

Follow tradition?

Follow tradition or not?
As many of you may already know, I’m African, so In this blog I’m going to write about some of the different cultural traditions that we have. Not all people follow these and some aren’t as strictly instructed anymore, but yeah you can decide for yourself if you would agree or disagree. I disagree with all of these. Sorry mom and dad. I don’t care,
Number 1:
A man is the head of the house, makes all household decision, and the woman must do what he says.
*I totally disagree with this so called tradition, because what makes a man so much more superior than a woman? She can do the exact same thing as he can. I don’t think the woman should have to do anything a man tells her to, As long as she is independent she doesn’t even have to think twice about what he says. She should be able to make decision to, I mean they’re going to effect her also. So I say she should have a part.
Number 2:
If a girl wants to marry, the parents have to agree with the Man she is trying to marry.
*For this one I’m in the middle. I disagree because, sometimes parents judge too quickly and some don’t even take the time to get to know someone. I agree though, because your parents are the people who have raised you and they try to make decisions that will benefit you, there’re not making them to hurt you so, I’m Half and half.
Number 3:
When a Man wants to marry a woman he must pay the girls family. In Africa, since they’re mostly farmers you pay with cattle.
*I disagree. Why in the world should you have to pay to marry the person you want to spend your life with. In a guys point of view, I would see this as un-fair. Wouldn’t this cause someone to not want to marry the person they wanted to marry anymore? Well if its true love maybe not, but to me its practically selling your daughter.
Number 4:
A man can have more than one wife if he chooses.
Ha yeah right! DISAGREE TO THE MAX! That’s ridiculous. I thought the whole reason you marry someone is because you love them and b/c they’re the only one you want to spend you life with. There’s no reason for having two wives. I disagree strongly.

* I apologize if you believe in any of these traditions. I’m not trying to offend anyone. This is just basically me stating my opinion. *
-Thanks
-Martha

I'll play DJ for the night.

Sweaty Bodies and lame music, that was our winterfest.

At first I wasn't going to go, but then I thought,"well what else am I gonna do?"
So I called a couple friends and we decided to go. I couldn't decide whether or not to dress up so i just wore my signature skinnies and a top I haven't worn for a while. My motto for the night was 'just have fun' and go with an open mind.Trust me I tried. The music is kind of what set me back from having fun. It was mosty rock or songs from the early like 40s? Yeah it was straight up throwback music. I think we need a new dj, oh and what's up with everyone screaming once a song they probably just heard a few minutes ago is replayed? It was getting to over the top. I think one of these days I need to host the dance, I'll play DJ for the night.

-Martha

My poem.

i ROAM AROUND iN LIFE ALONE
ANGER HOT, iN A WORLD SO COLD
NO EYES TO MEET, OR A HAND TO HOLD
TRUST DiSAPPEARS, AS LiES UNFOLD
SO WHO WILL iT BE THAT'LL RESCUE ME?
AND TURN MY LiFE iNTO WHAT iT USE TO BE.
THAT'LL UNBLiND MY EYES SO THAT i CAN SEE
THAT MY HEARTS....
NOT OFFiCiALLY BROKEN.

-By ♥Martha:D

Update

Hey everyone. Maybe you noticed or maybe you didn't, but I've been missing a lot of school lately. Well that because I was hospitalized for three days. I've been having pain under my rib and that causes complications when I stand up or eat so, thats why I Haven't been in school. I have somethig called pancreatitus. I have the acute one so i'll be back to normal soon.No worries though, I'm getting better. I sorta miss going to school too. Everyone's started on the new semester and I'll be looking kinda lame not knowing my schedule as well, but hey can't blame me. So yeah I got out today. The hospital is not a fun place to be. I mean its clean and the nurses are nice, but ugh its just too much the mood is always dull. Oh and have you noticed that when your somewhere else like home or school, the pain seems all severe but right when you step into the hospital its feels better. That how I felt. Now I'm on this low-fat diet. It sucks. I LOST 5LBS IN 2DAYS! That's crazy. So no more BK, or Taco Bells or any of those fun places. There's a good side to it though, I'll be nice and healthy for track season! Well yeah that's pretty much the highlight (or lowlight) of my week! Thanks for reading.

-♥Martha

Smallest step, Biggest Impact.

Volunteering is making the smallest step, but leaving the biggest impact. Yesterday, me and Nyajuok finally finished our hero project, and I must say it felt really good. We went to St.Johns and played BINGO with the residents, and may I add, BINGO is no joke to those residents. We had a full house or dining room to be exact. The whole process was kind of scary, but at the end made all the differnce. I was helping our this lady and this man. The lady couldn't see so well and the man need help clearing his cards because he could only bend over so much. He kept thanking me everytime I helped him and it felt really made me feel like I was helping out a lot when all I was doing was clearing off a bingo card. I promise to do this more often! It was awesome.

New Years Resolution

Yo! It's me again. So yeah I was at church and this guy was talking about how we really need to follow through with our NYRs, and I noticed that after all the years I've set a goal for myself, I never follow through. My NYRs for this year are, GET IN SHAPE!(track season is coming up) NO MORE SHYNESS(my personality needs to shine) and last and diffenatly the hardest NO PROCASTINATION. (I doubt it'll work, but i'll try extra hard). I was thinking do we set our NYRs to high because mine never work. I'll be all into it in the first to months, but after that. Screw it. I mean for the get in shape one, I'll get a Y membership and exercise more, but I'm still going to eat all day. I won't be shy, but I probably won't talk to everyone. I'll turn my Homework in on time, but I'll do it 2 days before its due, instead of the day before its due. Yeah that sounds right, so the question is "Will I actually follow through this year?" I think I might!!!

Christmas didn't seem like X-mas

Hey everybody! I wanna start out by saying I hope you all had a marvelous Christmas, because I didn't. It didn't seem like Christmas this year at all. The snow was a little to much so it was really cold which caused me to hate going outside, but then again it was a very white x-mas. Anyway for X-mas eve we went up to the cities and celebrated there and then for x-mas day we went to a church service and stuff like that. It was okay,but not too many people showed up b/c it was so cold, oh well. On our way home it was crazier than a mug! It was so cold. The snow was blowing from every which way, AND OH! I experience one of the scariest times of my life. There was this white car and it thought it was cool swervin' and switchin' lanes and all that jazz, but the it hit this ice patch and OMGosh, it flew into this ditch. It was ridiculously crazy man. I almost cried. I thought the people died, but their car was upright so I think they're okay. Hopefully. Oh and my mom was getting mad at us for sleeping during the ride. I think it was bcuz she was scared herself.
Lol. So yeah Christmas wasn't as cool as I thought it would be, but this year's christmas should be awesome.